I'm sorry that you're going through a difficult time. As others have mentioned, seeking therapy could be a helpful step.
If it's hard to find a therapist in your small town, you may want to consider talking to your regular doctor about getting some medication to help improve your mental health. I personally tried this approach when I was feeling low and it helped me make better decisions and get back on track within a month or so.
It's important to keep in mind that even if you've achieved a lot of success and have a happy family, it doesn't necessarily mean you'll always feel like a success. I've experienced this myself, even though I had everything, I felt like a failure.
However, I have confidence that once you take care of your mental health, you'll feel like you haven't wasted your life and will appreciate your past experiences.
If it's hard to find a therapist in your small town, you may want to consider talking to your regular doctor about getting some medication to help improve your mental health. I personally tried this approach when I was feeling low and it helped me make better decisions and get back on track within a month or so.
It's important to keep in mind that even if you've achieved a lot of success and have a happy family, it doesn't necessarily mean you'll always feel like a success. I've experienced this myself, even though I had everything, I felt like a failure.
However, I have confidence that once you take care of your mental health, you'll feel like you haven't wasted your life and will appreciate your past experiences.